2010-08-01T23:16:00.002+08:00

Now i know the reason why....

Still back to the same reason...

I still believe if you love me you would accept it.

Because you need me in your life.

You would want me to be inside your life.

2010-07-30T02:36:00.002+08:00

Been ages since i logged in here.

I just wanna rant........

Fuck. I cant help it to feel paranoid when he's out of my range.
Like not answering my calls, replying my msges.
The bad feeling just come up to you and eat you inside out.
You know you have to trust. Deep in your heart u trust him all sorts of reason convinced you etc... but still the fucking insecure feeling is killing you. Hate it soo much!!

2010-06-25T21:22:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry...

For what i've done...

I realise things too late..

2010-06-11T18:26:00.001+08:00

我用一万个答案

解释我们的距离

到最后发现我全都猜错

你想要的是什么

站在你背后
我连呼吸都痛

2010-05-26T18:25:00.002+08:00

I dislike my past.
And my past is somehow affecting my present.
Why do i have to face ppl from the past and let them affect my present ?
I am trying very hard not to be sensitive and too emotional.
FML

2010-04-10T02:35:00.002+08:00

Sorry, i am not capable of meeting your expectation.
I'm afraid i may fail you.

2010-03-18T00:07:00.002+08:00

Why is it that,

a guy will always put his love as FIRST PRIORITY when he haven gotten the gal yet

and changed it after he had her ???

fml.

I do agree that girls are always demanding.

Always seeking attention from their love ones.

and it got worst when we having our menses.

yadadddaaa...

yes, we girls are fucking irritating.

But you guys always use your penis to think...

instead of your brain! Asshole!

PS:// just a random thought that cross my mind.

2010-02-27T17:46:00.000+08:00

Day 1.

I feel so dead and gone~
No words can describe my feelings now.

2010-02-26T17:41:00.003+08:00

Finally i get to see a clearer picture now... awesome!!

neeway, went to ph for 2 weeks. The first week was good... after that the following was okay.
Saw the ugly side of some people. Afterall ph is still good and fun cant get enough of it.

When you tell me that you love me i was touched.
At the same time i question myself...

TGIF, i wanna drinkkkkkk tonight~ cant get enough of alcohol!!

2010-02-15T04:05:00.001+08:00

I miss you.
Happy V. day~

2010-02-11T16:02:00.001+08:00

“If someone wants to be in your life, they’d make an effort to be in it. So don’t bother to reserve a space in your heart for someone who doesn’t make an effort to stay”

2010-02-11T11:54:00.001+08:00

Smile and Chill~

though,

Deep down your heart is aching~

2010-02-10T14:39:00.001+08:00

Anyone can easily walk away from somebody else. Nobody is forced to stay; we all have choices. But the real test is if someone would rather stay with you, even though walking away would be so much easier.

2010-02-05T10:14:00.002+08:00

I am very unhappy with my current job.
I am so stressful everyday.
Heavy workload, lots of shit to clear.
3 weeks alr.. i had enough of it.
People think that i shouldnt rant and face the stress.
But i just dont like my job.
Got no motivation at all...
Everynight i force myself to sleep, to wake up in the morning.
Drag my feet to work.
sucks! Maybe one of the reason is that i am still not used to waking up early.

But...

I cannot let my friend(my manager) down.
People out there have high expectation on me.

yesterday, ** ask me " so are you still working ? "
I replied " yes, still hanging on why ? "
"All your friends have quit their job, hopping here and there. So i thought you would be the same "
I replied " oh, i feel like quitting too but i cant only. "

Other incident, i can still remember on my 2nd day of work. I bum into xxx

He said " Be thankful that your friend introduce a job to you, do a good job and dont let people look down on you. There is a very good example around me and dont be like her. "

The reason why i am enduring till now is because i dont want people to think that i am useless.
My friend(manager) have faith in me, people think highly of me.
They think that i am different from my surrounding peers.
He doesnt want me to be an irresponsible person.

I dont like people to look down on me.
I do not want to disappoint anyone.
I do not want to be the next one that everyone says that i am immature and etc..
It wont bring me good only.

Well, i just have to face it.
Nobody likes to work neither our parents do.
I just have to admit the fact that i am lazy and spoilt.
I cannot take it that why must i have to wake up so early in the morning to work.
Everyday seems meaningless.
But on a second thought, i thought about my parents.
Now that i've to wake up early in the morning. I get to see them and talk to them.
And i ask myself, why my parents could wake up early every morning without complaining how tired they are..
Because of the family they have to. My heart aches when i thought of that.
It make me felt so useless.

Thinking back, for the past few months i have been sleeping like nobody business.
Leading a retire life..
Now, i felt like i am wasting my life away.

Previously, i restrict myself from posting my thoughts.
Now i felt that ITS MY BLOG.
Why cant i type and express everything that i want to ?
Why must i think of others before myself ?
seems selfish but mind you this is my blog!
If anyone is unhappy or something come straight to me.
Any question and doubts come straight to me.
Stop asking behind my back and assume things.
I am sick of all this shit already.

2010-02-01T09:25:00.000+08:00

我不想刻意不去想；我不想刻意忘记你。
Time will heal everything ; Time will prove your love to me.

2010-01-25T12:09:00.001+08:00

W ask me this...
Why clinch onto something which everyone disapprove ?

Why ?

2010-01-22T09:56:00.002+08:00

lots of things to express....
But i have got no time to blog.
Work work work.

alright, a short one....
People just be contended that their is someone who is willing to stay beside you to argue or quarrel with you.
No matter how bad the situation is both of you are still together. Side by side to standby each other.
<:

I just want my friends to be contended and dont be like me.

2010-01-20T17:18:00.002+08:00

Suddenly i miss him so much and text him.
Received an expected answer.
Next sec, someone condemn/comment about him to me in msn.
I teared while working...

What a wednesday.

PS:// PEOPLE WHO DONT KNOW WHO IS HE, DONT ANYHOW ASSUME AND QUESTION PEOPLE. RESPECT ME AND ASK ME PERSONALLY.

2010-01-19T15:09:00.000+08:00

I feel lucky everyday when I'm with you , But the worst thing is holding on to someone who doesn’t want to be held on to.

2010-01-05T14:45:00.001+08:00

Some people are better off as just friends.

Now, it became so easy to spot who cares who doesnt. (:

2010-01-04T17:47:00.002+08:00

Everyday everyone attempt to sleep but failed. lol

2009 sucks to the max!

Lots of things happen last month..

I took the first step to contact qi again...

After some incident i felt that i must treasure ppl around me before its too late.

I know i did some mistake in the past and make some friends lose faith in me...

i know i am a bad friend.

It also took me quite awhile to realise what really went wrong. ):

2009 i have lost something precious but i have gain alot of precious lesson .

Hopefuly 2010 good year for everybody! cheers, love.

Alright i know this is abit late, 2010 resolution!!

i gonna salvage and treasure my friendship with those who are really worth it.

Gonna earn big bucks.

For my own good i must learn not to rely on him.

Must kick the habit of having him around.

Spend more time with my friends and loves one!

2009-12-26T03:26:00.002+08:00

Its gonna be another sad birthday.

People who know should understand my situation.

I wanted to leave that place so much but my surrounding doesnt allowed me.

There is something i wanted so much but i couldnt have it now.

And i dont wanna give up on it.

2009-12-09T21:16:00.002+08:00

PRISCILLA IS DEVASTATED.

2009-11-26T00:16:00.000+08:00

Will it be another sad birthday ?

Why do i feel that history will repeat itself ?

2009-10-27T21:56:00.002+08:00

what you DO speaks so loud that i could not hear what you say.

babe, i cant bring myself to believe that you are concerning about me. I dont feel it... it seems fake. Well from now on i will post in my private blog to save unnesessary problems...

2009-10-07T16:28:00.002+08:00

Im so tired emotionally.. Under lots of stress lately...
Im afraid i might take it any longer...
So much things to think of and to do yet so lil time...
So much things to absorb and digest and to cope...
Im just priscilla only...

You expect this and that..
You are not me you dont understand how i felt and what i am facing...
None can totally understand it because you are not ME.

2009-10-02T13:47:00.001+08:00

Thanks to the haze! I've been coughing for days...~

2009-09-17T03:04:00.002+08:00

so much things running through my mind lately, yet so little time for me to digest and solve everything.
I need an angel to lead me.

2009-09-09T14:28:00.001+08:00

Darling eme and friends, there you goooo here is all the blogshops

April thirtheen
Little Red Heels
Saycheezels
The Stage Walk
Dadigirl
Agneselle
Treslovechic
RustyRoses
Tracyeinny
Robotninjas
Hergoldencloset
lollipopbestie
zigzagzey
Intoxicquette
Polkadotspigs
Ivoryveil
milkywalker
vanitysweets
quincc
Project Canary
Beliissima
Troytees
Hollyhoque

Enjoy shopping, xoxo

Gotta rush and get prepared.
Going to Mp to settle some stuff
Then off to meet yunqi and diana to watch baobei en performance~!

2009-09-04T18:09:00.000+08:00

who can really understand me ?
Fucked up family.... None of them understands me..

2009-09-04T17:09:00.000+08:00

I got a 100ml Gucci envyme from loves!
Happy Happy Happy..

2009-08-31T17:20:00.001+08:00

玻璃碎了，再如何把它恢复原装，裂痕永远都还在.....

2009-08-31T17:17:00.000+08:00

quotes: just like condoms, 99.99% of guys who lives on this earth are such unreliable source of excess wastage!

2009-08-29T18:24:00.000+08:00

Sorry darling gals, i cant meet you all today.
I just wanna be alone today to think of stuff which i need to get serious with.
And to sort out some mixed feelings which is killing me badly now.

2009-08-28T14:02:00.000+08:00

17 May09
Qian x2 need someone to lead her on.
need someone to bring back her confidence.
help her to overcome her barriers.
bring back faith and hopes.
make her believe in guys n r/s again.
make her feel that at least someone is true to her,
understand her, love her.

Sometimes i ask myself this,
am i asking for too much ?

28Aug

I am re-posting this post again.

I have been very lazy to update! So sick and tired of updating..
Nothing special to update too..
work, birthdays,work birthdays and L4D !!
Nothing much, my life is so boring!!

2009-07-18T05:54:00.003+08:00

Deep thoughts.
I regretted.
Being friends are always better than lovers.
Esp, a rebound r/s.
I rather we didnt even started.
We are like strangers now.
good friends to hi-bye.
I detest this feeling..

can i rewrite everything ?

2009-07-08T06:24:00.002+08:00

Thousands of the same alphaberts flowing through my mind.
Its killing me badly.

I told grandma about it..
She was stunt that it ended so fast.
I dare not face her when i talk about it.
I hide in the blanket like a coward.
I can feel that she is feeling for me.
I felt so touched and teared.

2009-07-07T13:08:00.001+08:00

Today i woke up missing him so much
That i teared.
Whats with all this emotion ?
I dont get it... i dun seems to understand myself alr.

2009-06-27T18:45:00.000+08:00

I am gonna numb myself tonight!
Once and for all.

2009-06-21T21:46:00.002+08:00

I'm unhappy.
who understand?

I truly understand nahnahchan's blog song.
Its reflecting me too.

2009-06-18T15:48:00.000+08:00

I'm speechless now.

2009-06-17T18:19:00.002+08:00

Went to Ben & Jerry cafe with kk yest!
Wanted to find eme, nahnah ( NEW NICKNAME) and qianyi.
But eme and nahnah wont be staying long at illu.
so i went liquid with kk.

Celebrating zoe's birthday today.
super belated celebration!
will be back with tonnes of photos!
Tonight is havoc night!
i am going ph today after so long...~
so excited!

and and Good news!
Pris successfully got an office job!
she's gonna start work next tuesday.

I am contended with what i have now.
To love and to be loved.

2009-06-13T04:11:00.003+08:00

At 19:44 someone send me msg and made me smile (:
Although is just 2 simple words but it make my heart melt.

2009-06-08T18:02:00.002+08:00

I AM SO FUCKING PISSED WITH MY MARKETING GROUP.
ps not zul is the other 3.

The question is WHAT SUGGESTIONS DO YOUR GROUP HAVE FOR ENHANCING THE IMAGE OF THE COMPANY ?

fyi, my group is doing about singapore zoo.

so this is how my group members answer

The zoo could open up a pet shop at the zoo for animal for lovers to adopt a pet. There would be someone to educate them about the animals sold in the pet shop so that they would not abandoned the animals after they bought them or to existing people who already has a pet to get advise on taking better care of their present pets from the professional assistant who has zoology knowledge of the animals.

The zoo could also open up a exhibit of tame animals in the zoo that would allow visitors to pet them and that the animals are about to roam freely so that visitors are able to get close to them to know the animals more.

okay this is the 2 which i think is the most ridiculous.

1. Anyone explain to me what does this 2 paragraph got to do with ENHANCING the IMAGE of the zoo ?

2. I do not understand what the fuck are they talking about. One whole sentence so long no comers no full stop. I wonder what microsoft software they using which can allow them to type 30 words in a sentence.

3. Open pet shop to adopt pets ? so is selling or adoption ? wtf we are not talking about spca man. Moreover we are talking about enhancing the zoo IMAGE not pet shop.

4. what is ' present pets ' ? i LOL when i saw this la. Then Pet society is where people form their future pet la ?
JOKE.

5. Professional assistant who has knowledge ? Does my dea group member know what is the meaning of professional ? Its like saying a doctor who has medical cert.

6. Zoo can open up a exhibit of animals in the zoo ? WTF! Isnt what the zoo is doing ? How detail they want the zoo to be in exhibit the animals ?

7. Animals to roam freely ? how freely man. Who will dare to go to the zoo ? even some people are afraid of cats and dogs and here we are talking about animals which are in the zoo. Have the forgotten about the white tiger incident ? I ask my 10yrs old sister about it whether she would want to go to a zoo where animals can ROAM FREELY. she said no! and said about the white tiger incident. LOL my mum also dun wanna go lor.

I almost died laughing loh at the same time i feel like crying i need to redo this question. Best of all tomorrow deadline. On the mean while one of the group member msn me....

Priscilla ❤ ピアノ ♪♪♪♪ says:
the zoo could open up a exhibit of animals in the zoo
Priscilla ❤ ピアノ ♪♪♪♪ says:
isnt what the zoo is doing ?
A lonely Chord says:
no cos the zoo doesnt allow ppl to touch or hav close cntct
A lonely Chord says:
so we make like a small exhibit dat has tame animals so that ppl could have close contat with the animals
A lonely Chord says:
no tame animals

totally BWG.

Priscilla ❤ ピアノ ♪♪♪♪ says:
what you mean by PRESENT PETS ?
Priscilla ❤ ピアノ ♪♪♪♪ says:
first time heard about this.
A lonely Chord says:
as in the pets that they alred have
A lonely Chord says:
like somtimes they have pets but they may not noe much abt the pets etc or new pet owners

now what does she mean by SOMETIMES THEY HAVE PETS ?
Another JOKE. she really make my day!

Priscilla ❤ ピアノ ♪♪♪♪ says:
sometimes they have pets ?
Priscilla ❤ ピアノ ♪♪♪♪ says:
then sometimes they dont ?
A lonely Chord says:
as in theres cases wer ppl buy pets jus bcos they are cute then they didnt noe how to tke care of them n then thrw away
A lonely Chord says:
n also for ppl who want to buy their pets

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA
so irresponsible owner SOMETIMES have pets SOMETIMES they dont have. Does she mean that ?

Almost vomitted blood out.

OK, i know is very bad for me to laugh. But i just couldnt help it! Although my english is not that fab i did not get As for my O level english. But this is too ridiculous! Even my primary 4 sister is laughing la.

speechless.

Now i have to re-do. VERY GOOD!
Thanks alot man.
nnbcb

2009-06-01T13:53:00.004+08:00

okay, back to normal posts.

i was at town from fri to sunday
and i am heading to town again.
wohoo 4 days straight!
Did classic mani and pedi with cindynah on friday.
Had yummy lunch at some korean restaurant.
BBQ beef and chicken~
Saturday head town for lunch again with cindynah.
met up with wendy on sunday for Brazilian waxing~!
we went to strips.
Its was my first try.
The pain is bearable.
Its like ants bite.
but certain area hurts abit more.
Overall is was good.

Yest, breakdown again..
cry like nobody business.
cindylim came to find me was feeling better after i see her.
Had a super long chat with her.
chatting about how we miss our sec sch life and stuff.
sidetrack alot to divert me from thinking about negative stuff.
thanks alot gal!

Alright, i am going to prepare myself and meet zul in school.
Need to pay subpaper fees and study.
This saturday FBM exam!

And i will be meeting cindynah in town later for dinner.

xoxo

2009-05-27T23:34:00.003+08:00

Hate hate hate hate hate!

Hate it when people say i MIA.
when you people didnt even bother to call me
and complain that i MIA cause i didnt call to bother you people.
wtf ?
friends ? friends ? friends ?
Everyone thought wrong okay ?!
They thought i have this bunch of friends they thought i have another bunch.
fuck it! Everyone lets assume.
I've got no friends alright ?
None did bother to call me.
even if i die a week my good friends also wont knows.
I dont expect you people to call me daily.
often ? once in a blue moon or something ?
Everyone just wait or expect for me to call.

whatever, i am just ranting.
saying it out of anger.
who bothers about this shit man ?!

2009-05-27T23:30:00.002+08:00

i start to dislike or maybe hate each and everything about and around me.

pessimistic.

2009-05-27T17:14:00.002+08:00

Marketing assignment and exams is getting on my nerves.

GO MAN U GO~

MAN U WILL WIN TONIGHT'S LEAGUE!

2009-05-26T17:43:00.002+08:00

Thanks mel for bringing me to the doc!
He came all the way from the west,
brought me to eat my TAO HUAY
and bring stubbon pris to the doctor!

Its been 2 1/2 days.
I have been at home resting.
Under my mum's care
i am 3/4 recovered!

okok, i know it doesnt mean that i can go out.

I was busy packing my stuff at home.
Packing all the heels,clothes etc..
I realise that i SERIOUSLY need a new pair of NEW LOVE.
Although i have like more than 10 pairs of heels.
But to a girl is never enough!
I NEED A NEW PAIR OF HEELS!

I NEED A NEW BAG TOO!

sigh~ $______________$ where are you ?

2009-05-24T18:31:00.002+08:00

Movie and clark kay with mag,bob, wendy and drew.
Its was great hanging out with them!
Hopefully can meet them up soon.

Dont which to talk about what happen after that.

Its been 3 weeks.
I am still sick.
The cold on and off on and off.
super pissed.
yesyesyes!
mainly is i didnt take care of myself.
lots of people have been nagging and nagging.

i should quarantine myself for a week.
stop illu too until i get fully recovered.

2009-05-18T00:24:00.003+08:00

I seems to be okay,
but i am not.
I seems to be happy drinking and clubbing,
but i am not.
I seems to get done and over it,
but i am not.
I try to believe you my friend,
but you dun allow me to.

Who knows whats deep in my heart ?
I felt very upset but i don't know why.
I wish to talk to someone at times.
But it seems hard for me to really open up.
I know what my friends are going to say.
I know, i know.
It's difficult to do than saying.

Its so deep and meaningless.

2009-05-17T15:04:00.002+08:00

Qian x2 need someone to lead her on.
need someone to bring back her confidence.
help her to overcome her barriers.
bring back faith and hopes.
make her believe in guys n r/s again.
make her feel that at least someone is true to her,
understand her, love her.

Sometimes i ask myself this,
am i asking for too much ?

2009-05-15T16:35:00.002+08:00

someone : " 我走了以后你要好好生活不要想我也别再哭了 "

Tears flows down profusely when i saw this.
Thanks for being there when i needed you.

2009-05-13T15:33:00.000+08:00

I am gonna cook chicken macoroni and zha jiang nooodles today!

:D:D:D

2009-05-13T00:49:00.022+08:00

St James, Kallang Ice World and me!

Wendy and i

Just changed into our skating shoe.

Me with my bunny twist!

^_v

Joanna, dick, me, Cynthia, wendy

All the gals with maggie!

Very natural! nice!

Dragonfly~~~

PowerHouse!

with melvin and qoo! saw them outside the toilet!

Sotong Ball!

With all the gals.

with sotyna, siewling, wendy <3>

us with weicong.

with siew ling.

Last of all Priscilla.

Finally i upload all the photos!

Ph was a blast!

Last sat met up with cousins and friends for ice skating.
Fun fun fun! Hope to skate again real soon!

Last friday, was disheartening.
It was so much for me to take but i still manage to pull through.
thanks to wendy, cindynah,weizhen,eme and qianyi.
Thanks all for being there.

A million thanks to J T for being so nice to let me see ya true colours.
It so nice that i will not remember it. (=

2009-05-06T02:31:00.002+08:00

your appearance is so not needed.
yadaydaydaydyadaa.

i so sick of relying either alcohol or pills to sleep.

2009-05-04T02:06:00.000+08:00

gossip girl season 2 epi 22 is out.
loves.

2009-05-03T16:00:00.004+08:00

with melvin, wendy,qianyi and my perm hair. haha!

taken long ago. miss my straight staright hair!

Once again we worked together!

yes yes yes! i perm my hair!
NICE NICE ?
keith said that he prefer me with perm hair.
very suitable for me and stuff.

Monday worked with cindy and qianyi.
wenesday went out with emeline. ( will upload the photos soon)
work on thursday df after that.
i stayed at home for the whole of friday.
kinda unbelievable right ?
because i having family dinner.
sat ph n df with alots of babes!

It was a blast!

fun fun fun!

I have tons of photos to upload!
But i have to compile all of them first.

anyway, its sunday today i am craving for GOOD FOOD! :D

2009-04-29T01:01:00.001+08:00

grr... my ugly tan lines.

---------------------------------------------

You will always be my secret.

0310.

Saying that its for my own good i know.
Neonbujok hadaneun geumar.

2009-04-25T20:15:00.000+08:00

What's behind this mask ?

2009-04-23T18:44:00.002+08:00

I miss the old Priscilla.

I teared when i saw peien's blog.
I miss you gals too.

Zoe, hope your grandpa will recover asap.

Yanli, can you stop doing housework and meet me for lunch ?

Peien, i did call you alright. But you didnt ans or call back!!

Weizhen weizhen! Find sometime to meet me alright ? you seems so busy this week!

And bless me! hope i got the clinic job! :D

2009-04-20T14:27:00.002+08:00

I hate this part.
I hate what i am feeling right now.

Retribution goes round and round.
very nice.
I like it.

2009-04-17T18:37:00.002+08:00

Wed was awsome~!
But sadly, no photos!!
I went to illu alone to drink and wait for qy.
Saw the usual people there.
left illu at around 1 to Ph.
something happened to Qy.
so Anson fetched her to Sabai.
while i meet up with zul & xueyi.
Eme came and we went sabai tgt.
4 love is drinking together again.
had lots of fun.
everyone is tipsy except me.
):

-----------------------------------------------------

I am glad that remembered the promise you made.
You tried to fulfill but i know there are some circumstances.
so is okay i understand.

But after which i am disappointed.
somehow.
and i dont know why.

2009-04-16T19:16:00.001+08:00

Out of a sudden i felt numb.

I really feel that i am cold blooded.

2009-04-14T21:01:00.011+08:00

SENTOSA TRIP WITH FAMILY AND FRIENDS!

we reach there like 10am.. the sun is scorching hot! within 2 hour i got sunburn.
But around 4pm it started pouring heavily we got stuck there for like an hour plus.

Dislike those ugly bikini line but Alan say its sexy. *roll eyes*

PICNIC time! we had sandwiches for our breakfast cum lunch.
Its like subway man. Thanks to bob and dickson for preparing..
we had lettuces,tomatoes, Japanese cucumber,pepper,cheese,egg mayo,tuna,ham and mayo!
NICE!! <3>

Our lil princess shanice and wendy! She is my beloved baby cousin!
This is her first trip to sentosa! she even wore a bikini! how cute!
Everyone love her! <3>

4 April!
I met them after their badminton session! I was too tired and lazy to go for badminton so i met them for dinner! Had sushi teh @ vivo!

Daniel Chan and i ! How is my photo editing skills ?
He kept saying that he is a CUTE BOY.
yea.. i think he looks quite cute after i edited his photos!
HAHA. how evil..

We headed to Heeren for Waraku!
Thanks cindy for introducing me the potatoe mendai!
DAMN oishii lah!

Alright i am done for the pictures and stuff..
I am quite down actually.. ok as usual i am always so emo when it comes to blogging.
Well i've got lots to say but i dun think i will share it all. pardon me!

Firstly, i got trouble paying my remodule fees.

Secondly, mum attitude got worse. The atmosphere at home is always so tensed. Hate it!

Lastly, jer. Right from the start i know Jer is not what i want.

Friends have been telling me that

He is too young for you. ( 2 months younger)
He is just a companion.
He is not your type.
He couldnt take care of you.
He cant understand you totally.

I have expected this to happen not surprise and nothing new to me.
And i know jer you will be reading this.

Life is so......
Being single is so....
Being in a r/s is so......
Being in this society is so....
Being in this family is so.........

Really got too much to say about.
I am having deep thoughts again.
How awful.
Hate the feeling.
Deep in the night thinking about lots of stuff.
Getting emo, one puff after another.
Listening to songs.
Either i cry to my dreams or wait till dawn to fall asleep.

Replies of tags:

Eme: I am still uncontactable. Still having bad bad flu.

En: sorry baobei! i put an aeroplane not on purpose okay ? will make it up for you! pleaseee!

Yanli : you thought you would be suprise.

2009-04-03T03:32:00.003+08:00

she painted on a smile, erased all her tears & learnt how to pretend..

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Truly, if there is evil in this world, it lies within the heart of mankind. - Edward D. Morrison

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Love’s development makes it hard to turn back but I can't go forward.

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How many tears has love made us shed?

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your warmth got near me and carried away my heartbeat.

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2009-04-02T15:37:00.002+08:00

Worked yest cindy and qianyi came down.
I head to double o to look for alan daddy they all.
wanted to go ph after that cos zul and qianyi is there but i was very tired and hungry.

I hate that word ' SPECIAL ' .

2009-04-01T18:52:00.003+08:00

I am very very dulan right now.
friend friend friend.
I really wanna treat you as my good friend but it seems so hard.
I dislike the way you do things. Sometimes you dont even use your brain to think before you act or said something. It makes you so fake only.. people warn me alot of times but still i wanna treat you as my good friend. I dont wish to elaborate more...
pissed pissed. i am very very pissed!

I AM GOING TO POWEHOUSE TONIGHT TO VENT OUT ALL MY ANGER!

2009-04-01T03:07:00.000+08:00

Heartless bitch!

2009-03-31T13:10:00.001+08:00

I am quite particular about this.
Its a sensitive topic to post on.

2009-03-27T14:45:00.002+08:00

Work from 7pm-3am today.
Tomorrow 11am badminton.
Sunday family day.
Monday badminton and bowling with jing, en and yunqi.
Tuesday going massage with peien.
Wednesday ladies night. :D
Thursday rest.
Friday work!
Sat badminton.

Another tired tired weeek. ):

I miss yy.

2009-03-25T19:20:00.003+08:00

Taken last friday. Work is always fun with them around..

But sadly i wont be working with cindy on this coming friday. ):
darling misss me okay?

Firstly, Happy 1st month to kayson!
Sorry hon, i cant make it. But will make up with you all soon.

secondly, Happy birthday to DIANA!
i still remember okay although we seldom keep in touch and stuff.
Just to let you know i still care and remember you.
8 years of friendship and counting.
and hahaha 20 already. Song bo ?
And yes! i going to meet the cliques tomorrow.
chalet chalet chalet! (:

I am afraid that i might .........
But i think i have........
yy

2009-03-23T01:11:00.001+08:00

I hate this part of me.

2009-03-18T17:11:00.003+08:00

I know i have not been uploading photos!
Here you go today..
I felt that..
Life is getting meaningless and aimless each day.
Time passes so quickly that i always lost track of the dates.
damnit! 1/4 of the year have pass.
I wonder what have i been doing ?
What have i achieve ?
Any improvement ?
yes/no ?

Sometimes i felt so useless and down.

2009-03-15T16:52:00.002+08:00

im so pissed pissed pissed..

To HH :

Please dont offer to send me home when you know i stayed so far from you.
Dont need to be a gentlemen to send me home and complain to your friend that i stay so far!
Simply just dont understand it. Is your brain square or something ?

2009-03-09T02:41:00.002+08:00

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images

Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover.

2009-03-05T03:32:00.002+08:00

i drown myself with alcohol agn and agn and agn and again!

i made my love ones worried about me again and again and again!

i felt so fucked up!

Nothing special actually. ha!
I felt that the whole world is lying to me.

2009-03-04T03:53:00.001+08:00

YES, i am special. (:

I dont wanna commit to a r/s now. Its a bad bad time to do it..
Well, let nature take its course.
If we are meant to be together we will be, no matter what.

I believe in fate.

2009-03-01T04:11:00.001+08:00

Its over pris. Get over it and fucking move on gal~ you can do it!

2009-02-28T10:09:00.002+08:00

downfall.
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trust and understanding?
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heart fluttering ?
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crush or ....?
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are you holding back?
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2009-02-25T18:34:00.002+08:00

tears are flowing down when i saw your post.
And i realise how important you are to me.
I need you my friend. We still have a long way to go..
you are not a passerby in my life.

2009-02-20T19:02:00.002+08:00

YY,PAULINE,ME,ANSON

forgot where we took this photo. It was quite sometime ago..
I miss those period.
I think i look pretty during that period compared to now.
I want the old prissy!

2009-02-19T20:10:00.002+08:00

I sooo damn fucking happy lah!

A white icecream phone drop down to me just now.
I am loving it~

2009-02-19T14:08:00.004+08:00

VERY NICE. yest i drop my LAMPOK phone from my house to the ground while i was closing the window. YES, i am un-contactable again! Damn pissed with myself.

Now any phone will do. Drop it down to me please i swear i will take care of it. I wont be so careless again! ):

ICECREAM PHONE!!!

2009-02-18T02:02:00.002+08:00

why did you appear in my life ?

2009-02-15T17:57:00.002+08:00

Phuture for 2 nights. awesome~!!

after phuture, went to boat quay to meet someone to get back my top. Reached home at about 7am. woke up at 12pm today. met dickson & co around 1plus we head to jurong for badminton.
crazinesss! i dun feel tired at all. AND AND my dear emi and millie uploaded our sec sch photos in facebook! I almost fainted after seeing it....... anyway, yest i went to visit eme! baby kayson is so cute! later might be gng to visit her before i head to work. i need t rest nowwwwww. ciao~

complicated yet couldnt resist the temptation.
Confusing and meaningless
i shall take a break then.

2009-02-14T13:23:00.003+08:00

ARGHHHHHHHH~
i swear i was damn drunk yest. I drank like okok leh but still dunnoe why drunk!
First time... I puke in the cab!
First time ... i open my house door so loud that i wake my parents up.
Gosh! Dom dom is lecturing me right now. __________
SIGH~ i cried out loud with i was gng back alone.
lots of things in my head.
Mum and dad and that bitch thing.
cindy said is okay if i dun believe her but she believes in me.
I felt damn damn upset.

2009-02-13T18:34:00.003+08:00

Last night had a can of beer before i sleep.
wake up in the afternoon cabbed to kkh to find emeline.
Due so some circumstances her delivery is delay... sian
i came late so i couldnt see her. Had my lunch then meet kenny at bugis.
just nice he end school so went back tgt with him.
Suppose to meet emi but she lazy to come out.
Going to boat quay now to meet william & co after that at 11pm.
i am gng to ST JAMES! This is my first time clubbing with cindynah! damn excited can!!!
After club we gng down to kkh to visit eme by the time she should give birth alr.

2009-02-12T20:08:00.002+08:00

ITS been 9 days since i last blog..
i had been slacking and preparing for exams.
Had been at home for lots of days that some of my friend couldnt believe it. ha!
Pris can stay at home ya... hugging her laptop 24/7 watch all her fav dramas over and over again~~ ha!
anyway, tml our dear eme is gng to hospital to induce. Everyone cant wait to see baby kayson!! Then on v day single outing with emi, kenny they all to zouk! Had been at home for so many days gonna have fun over the weekends! HA

cheers

Did you realise that you have cast a spell on me ?

2009-02-03T02:38:00.002+08:00

i lost my beloved F480 and gucci landyard.
I cried.
I am so pissed off with myself! why am i so absent minded ?!
anyway, i wont be getting a new number or phone so soon.
yea, mia again~

2009-02-03T02:36:00.001+08:00

Fly Me To The Moon - Olivia Ong

2009-01-29T17:49:00.000+08:00

lovely friends!

2009-01-27T05:44:00.003+08:00

i think my body cannot take it anymore.
have been drinking and drinking and drinking.
2 days sleep less than 3 hours.
Well done pris.
this 2 weeks i drunk for like 5 days alr.
my gastric cannot hold any longer.
very very very good!
*Slap myself*

2009-01-23T23:07:00.005+08:00

Loneliness...
Emptiness..

This two kills me badly.
Yes, I've been clubbing almost every week.
I work and drink at the same time like say 4 days a week.
I am having fun and stuff.
I smiling happily and cheerfully in my photos
But that is just the outside.

Does anyone really know how i feel in the inside ?

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Did i really hurt you that badly ?
Have you move on ?

2009-01-22T18:11:00.002+08:00

Cabbed to queenstown to meet dom. $26bucks!
Had dinner with him then he send me to work.
Qianyi dar came to find me.
After work we head to dragonfly and powerhouse. $6
Then home. $25
Gosh! i spend $57 on cab! ):
Had some deep thoughts but i dun wanna share it here. Quite personal...

random

2009-01-21T01:48:00.003+08:00

Skipped work today.
weizhen thot i was gng to shop alone so she acc me.
So sweet yar.
Meet her after her work.
Dinner.
then SHOP SHOP SHOP.
Bought a heels at charles&keith.
Killing heels.
It was okay when i try it.
After walking from wisma to shaw!
I couldnt take it.
Regretted buying. $59.90. ):
Manage to find a pretty white top at FEP.
wendy was like ' for clubbing or cny ? '
LOL.
i replied 'Both! '
because i gng to st james on chu san which is next wed!
Back to tamp i meet rey and Ly for awhile then home!
Gonna study for sat exams!
I having bad bad headache but i have to write my notes!
So that i could revise during work.
poor thing right.
Ciao~ loves.

2009-01-20T10:58:00.003+08:00

its my fault. I should have done this or that.
whenever i thot of it i felt so guilty.
Lets take it as a lesson.
Next time no one can tear us apart!

anyway, i have been working crazily. morning 11-8pm 9-3am
right now i am resting at home.. will be meeting nad nad to study econs!
then tml same routine. 11-8pm 9-2am.
I dun even have the time to shop for cny clothes.

2009-01-18T16:31:00.002+08:00

Photos taken at D.F with loves!

I wonder what are my friends doing now.
Miss them real lots!
Have been calling cindy for 2 days she didnt ans my call. ):
I wonder how is she doing ?
Is everything fine with you?
I wonder how is emeline too.
we are suppose to meet but ended up with our own activities.
saded.
Ongqianyi is busy with work. But still i met her up 2 days ago!
But w/o 4loves. ):
Emi chong! sigh i am too busy to meet her.
Wanted to go club tgt but always got things cocked up.
emi, i went to club at st james is v last min de so didnt call ya.
yeepeien, you kuku anyhow post my photo in your blog!
but lucky you didnt choose an ugly photo.
Tanweizhen, i forgot when we last met up!
But i miss youuuuu.
meet up meet up!

why am i so long winded today ?
perhaps i miss my friends too much.
I wonder did they miss me too ?

2009-01-17T15:49:00.001+08:00

I am feeling very shitty right now..
Give me a break to think what is right.
Gonna leave this shit here to rot........

Be right back...

2009-01-16T13:56:00.001+08:00

DEAD, like a candle you burnt out.
LOVE ? I dont desire it anymore..